The Comeback

I guess am making my return to this page after ages....

In my defense i would like to state that the state of mind i have been carrying for the past few months were not conducive to writing.

Its 4hr past midnight..this is the the time when the writing ghost in me tend to get charred up a little leading me to write things which have always disturbed my readers the most.

So here how the story goes.Am in love with a girl..superbly cute and beautiful.
My life is like near perfect.Next,how i define perfection..

I jumped of a running train on 23rd of december,just couple of weeks back.Not to commit suicide neither to sport heroism..but a mere impulse that i acted upon under heavy dosage of alchohol.

Good news..am unscathed except for few bruises.And the bad news is i guess i am psyched out a bit.
Unable to handle the new genre of living and the hypertension building up between me and my so called "friend".I was like wanted to get hold of his flesh but the others present in the train wouldn't allow that..i couldn't control the rage and so escaped the situation by jumping of an express train travelling at 30kmph atleast onto the gravel tracks.

Am still frendz with him despite warnings from my family and true friends for reasons known to me alone and cannot be disclosed here.
Am a little typsy here,there is too many things to be spoken about..but for that i guess you need to wait for some more time,

Till then its good night and happy reading..am gonna be back with more articles which for sure will be more interesting to you than my previous articles.

Happy blogging everyone..

College days!!!

Xamz are over...we are runing around to fill up our no dues form..a little hectic considering the amount of effort i have put into my academics!!

Hrishi has already left for home..he will be joining BPCL in mumbai..Archit and Nilesh gonna leave early morning today!!

The feeling sucks to the core....am drunk..trying to justify all the acts but nevertheless, dnt wanna leave this college despite its everlasting flaws.

This is the place where i have spent the best days of my life...am drunk now like all the previous days!!Friends may justify my act as being a drunkard..but honestly i hate to leave the people u helped me transform into a man from a boy in just 4yrs of time....

I regret none of the moments i have in this college...
The infra sucks..but the bond we share rocks..it is really difficult to stay in touch with dis important individuals but nevertheless i promise to try my best to be the same BONG you guys know..the so called dealing-baz!!! I loved it when u called me a bengali....

I will miss every moment that we have cherished together...God bless you all!!

"This world is a very small place",i hope that it is the right statement stated by some eminent personnel...
All i hope is that we people stay the same as ever....and forgive me for any kiddish activities...

love you all more than the girls who kip entertaining my life...you people are more worth it!!!!! Gonna miss u as long as alive...

Hope to stay in touch even in the nxt phase of our life......*tears*..
Thank you all for being there when i needed you guys the most!!!!!

HUM HAIN RAHI PYAR KE..PHIR MILENGE CHALTE CHALTE!!!!

the valentines' day..

wats so special abt valentines' day??

can any of u cum up wid an apt answr to dis??

am 22 now and yet havent had a proper valentines day.. when i was in a relationship ..was busy wid my colg xam... last year i had a telepathic V-day wid sum1... dis year am celebrating the day wid my colg junior over Voddka...
sm drunk and my junior is fast asleep... i cant think of anything other than blogging and hence back blogging...

the article mite make no sense to ne1 but i don't have a choice jus wanna yell and scream at the top of my lungs ...

xcept for the fact every one is asleep and i don't wanna wake any1 up...

all i jus wonder is, whether am gna ever have aaa perfect valentine's day!!!

people who have a valentine...have a gr8 day aheah and for morons lyk me...
U SUCK!

The Dark Night Prevails....

Its 3am far-past midnight...

Mike: Calls up(tring tring)
Maria: Hi mike.

Mike: Am sorry.
Maria: For what sake?!

Mike: Am drunk despite your advice.
Maria: I can make that out from your voice.

Mike: This is the fourth time am drunk in last five days and yet it seems you are not concerned at all.Don't you love me anymore?!
Maria: I have to tell you something. I believe you aren't aware of the fact that i am still engaged with my boyfriend.I feel very guilty saying this but i have enjoyed every moment wid you , am going through a really rough patch with my stable boyfriend.We have decided not to speak for a month.He is very uncomfortable to hear anything about you from me..but u know me Mike, for me all i believe in is loyalty and respect.

Mike: Maria,don't be guilty!
c'mon don't be guilty i knew that you haven't broken up with him throughout..still i couldn't keep my emotions in control!Its ok..a lot of things happen in life which we cant really explain...same goes with whatever happened between us.Things happen for the good and most importantly happen by chance.(long pause).
I just wanna see you happy.. all that i care about.(voice trembling).

Maria:I just hope that you don't think of me otherwise or that i used you, but the fact is i genuinely love you.Its just that i love him for four years now!!!I wouldn't have been so close to you despite being in a stable relationship.I just don't wanna cry in front of you!

Mike:why should you cry you have done nothing wrong sweetheart?.I love Your honesty and like you a lot but i cant get in between you two...its against my principle.I just hope that U have a very happy life( voice breaks down completely).Don't worry about me, am gonna be just fine.. Listen na.. am feeling very sleepy! am not used to these serious topics...catch up with u later.(disconnects the phone)

HIS EYES WERE WET AND HE HAD A JOLLY SMILE ON HIS FACE.. THE FATE HAS PLAYED POSSOM AGAIN!He succeeded in losing someone again...but the tragedy lies in the fact why isnt it his fault ever???? that's all that he wonders till date.

Happiness is not so Happening..

Happiness is just another word in the English dictionary, but then is its meaning justified or proven?!.
It is an emotion that follows achievement, success and other flattering terms but then it is not ever lasting.

The first step towards happiness is always the toughest, cause it calls for busting the sorrows and graving them six-feet under.
The difficulty lies in our chromosomes, the hunger for ever lasting and eternally growing success.

The happiest of the lot are kids and grandparents.The former is the purest form of god's creation and are yet to be infected by the evil plague of discontentment.While the latter by virtue of their journey have recognized the evil.
The individuals who do not belong to the above categories are the inflicted souls and sadly the disease has no cure!.

The article so far may sound caustic but please read further before making your judgement.

-> A woman is the happiest to carry a budding life in her womb, but not so if she is still single.
-> A teenager builds his world around love and imaginations.Then the break-up follows, his sand castle is conquered.He is forced to remove the rosy-colored spectacles.
->Your best friend in high school,who used to be your pillion since childhood in now the C.E.O. of a multinational corporate house and too busy to give you a call.Its not your fault, yet you are sad.
->Your husband provide you with everything you want from stockings to necklace.
One day you read an text message in his phone, to your agony you are not the only female your husband is so concerned about! If you are smart enough u file a divorce or else you are an indian.
->The son gets married to a pretty lady, achieves immense success in life.His parents are proud of him but none do they realize how it will feel when he forsakes them.
->You are thirty six and a housewife, you are looking at the glam-dolls in your fashion weekly.
->Your pet dog dies.

Happiness is not something that you can search for amidst so much of pain, hypocrisy, malice and betrayal.SO try to enjoy its presence before it goes on another long vacation.

Eternal happiness was supposedly destroyed when The GARDEN OF EDEN was invaded, but the fact remains it is something that can make you smile even when your eyes are swollen from overnight tears, when you think about your first kiss, when you browse through your photo album......
......Or when you are tired of sitting in the couch and decide to hit the road.

DON'T SEARCH FOR IT, LET IT COME TO YOU.
DON'T FEEL DOWN, YOUR HAPPINESS IS DUE.

The WAIT..

It was dark,her lips were freezing
the last train had arrived,
But there was no sign of Mike.

The platform was empty,the weather was wet
the gods were against her
Her eyes were silent and her heart was broken!

Her uncle wanted to sell her,
Mike promised her a life.
But here she stands resigned to her fate,
No one to love,No-where to hide.

She was feeling so helpless,
not even a fly around her.
"why did he do this? He loved me!
He can't do this to me?!" all that she thought.

Suddenly her phone rang,
she listened to the voice,
she fell upon her knees,
Now she had all the answers.The voice said,
"Mike is dead, I love you Jess is all he said".

A PLOT TO REMEMBER....the placement season!!

10TH NOV'10....
(10:30am) Went for the written examination,casual as ever,creased shirt and cargo pants.my Hair unruly and long as it has has been for the past god knows how many years.

(11:00am) The question paper was distributed and to my agony couldn't make out where the technical questions were from, it all appeared plain Hebrew!!

Started off with the aptitude section, and solved all the questions with impeccable accuracy,knew a few tech answers, rest simple guessing.

(12:30pm) Returned to the hostel with a long face, nothing unnatural, considering the fact that the only thing me-thinking was how screwed and ill-literate i am!

They had given a bio-data form to be filled up by all the applicants just after the written and i was so sure that i wasn't clearing the written decided not to fill it up.

(2:00pm) Just finished off with my lunch,playing carom with friends. all of a sudden a friend of mine comes yelling " bangali tera written main ho gaya hai..............beti****,har*mi,chut*ya tune abhitak form nahin bhara hai?!"
i ran to my room to fill up the form, completely baffled, searching for a passport size photograph.Final got one and completed the form.

Thanks to my carelessness i had left my formal wardrobe and file back home.
i was wearing:
Shirt of Md.Fahad .
Tie and shoes of Amerendra kumar .
Documents File of Murari Kr Saxena .
And no socks

(3:00pm) The group discussion round started. The topic for discussion was "all men are born equal". the G.D. went well as it has always been the case with me.

(4:00pm) The results were declared and as expected, was selected for the interview round.

(6:00pm) I was nervous and tired waiting for my turn to come. I believe even others heard my heartbeats.Finally the minute arrived and i was asked to enter the cell, i mean impressing the H.R. panel is nothing less than trying to prove your innocence when caught red-handed ;).

Four experts were sitting across the table ready fire to questions at me and me-trying to dodge every question like Neo dodged the bullets in MATRIX.But after all he was in a fictional world and me?...i guess u know it!!

The interview panel comprised of three ladies and a gentleman.

The knights blasted me for 25 minutes, and i fought like Maximus the gladiator, but then finally i was sloshed even without a peg ;).

(8:30pm) The results of the grand finale was declared.Only four of us were selected.

I wont be able to express what was going through my mind and body at that pointed in time when the golden phrase " Nirmalya Datta, welcome to the Tata family" was told to me...it sounded like arpeggios from heaven.

(9:00pm) Returned to the hostel with friends swarming around me like bees.Then the wrath of happiness was unleashed in the form of the golden N.I.T. custom, the GPL..
OMG people kicked the ever so little flesh in my ass for god forbidden number of times and almost ripped it apart...ouch it still aches!!
Special mention:Ankit agarwal and Ghanshay meena.

Thanks Guys.

I didn't have my dinner that night, was in kinda trauma!!:D :D

I believe it is just so very impossible to credit my efforts or talent or patience to this cause.Its a dream come true, and i will credit it to all those people who have been by my side through the hick-ups of my life and yeah to my parents for blindly trusting my abilities.

WELL,ITS ALL IN THE STARS AND ON THIS DAY THEY ALL OF THEM WERE IN MY FAVOUR.



Special thanks to:

Gaurav,Tripta,Ankita,Urvashi,Sulagna,Ahana,Ayantika,Abhyudoy,Soumya,
Kanishka and Saurav.LOVE YOU ALL GUYS!!